the last time

this is a song i wrote some time back and i've hesitated to put it out there but.. well.. either i've matured to the point of saying "i am okay with it" or i've digressed to "i don't care what you think of it". haha. just kidding. maybe.

truth is, in my plight to become transparent i am putting it all out there. bear in mind i was not in the greatest place when i wrote this. i was hurting. i was confused. i was your typical messed up person who knew she was ready to walk away from the life she was leading and get it right with God, but hadn't quite taken that step yet. it was hard to loosen myself from the world's grip. turned out i didn't have to. i just had to call out to God and He pulled me out of it Himself. isn't He fabulous?

i wish i knew guitar well enough to write the music to it. the tune's in my head, i just don't know how to get it out. [stop delaying trace.. lyrics. now. do it...]


the last time

opposed to open myself up to closeness again
i hate to be the one to make you think
every word you say makes perfect nonsense to me
i'm laughing over the fool i am and

this is the last time i'll let you get away with me
this is the last time i'll cry myself awake
this is the last time i'm begging you to stay with me
this is the last time
cause tomorrow i'm over you

all the humble reasons why we won't do this again
living on the cusp of set in stone
pastel images turn graven in the mirror
alive never told me that and

this is the last time i'll let you get away with me
this is the last time i'll cry myself awake
this is the last time i'm begging you to stay with me
this is the last time
cause tomorrow i'm over you

cast your punishment out loud
don't tell me what to do
time is draining
i'm insane
and finally over you

this is the last time i'll let you get away with me
this is the last time i'll cry myself awake
this is the last time i'm begging you to stay with me
this is the last time i'll let you get away with me
this is the last time i'll cry myself awake
this is the last time i'm begging you to stay with me
this is the last time
cause tomorrow i'm over you
tomorrow i'm over you
tomorrow i'm over you

[hit send, now. do it. it's okay. they won't criticize. i hope]